He reminds me so of Papa, sometimes.  It's a good thing, I think, though a lot of people don't seem to understand why he acts the way he does.  Do I?  Perhaps not, but I know that he has the good of the wild in his heart, no matter how brusque he can be with the ones that abuse it.   


It is frustrating to lose a hunter over something so petty, especially considering... Gods, I'm blushing.  I can't even write what it is they say that hunter's done with his own sister!  And she did introduce him to me as her brother... Some people in this city are truly depraved, are they not?


Then again, I remember that odd Count, Railos.  The things they said about the purpose behind the Fledgling's Nest turned out to have been mere rumor... not that it matters.  He lost his coin and the place shifted into much more capable hands quickly.  Rumors can be deadly.  Why more of these city folks do not understand it, I'll never know.  To hop from bed to bed... does she never hope to marry a respectable man?  Making her indiscretions so public...


I'm rambling.  It's a good thing this is just a diary.  It's so hard to focus my thoughts any more after all those long days in meetings over succession issues.  The more time I spend in the city though, the more I wonder why Flaern has dreams like this.  Ruling these people is paramount to insanity.  Perhaps he can teach them the way of things.


Either way, whichever of the five take the crown, I hope it all ends soon.  Flaern has my support and I will continue to do what I can to draw people to him, but in truth there's only one thing I long for.  I need to find workers.  (Who'd have thought it'd be so hard in a city full of starving people?)  I need to find something to keep me busy, to keep my mind off Dayne...


Like that's going to happen.  Just the sight of him makes me weak in the knees.


Gods above, I'm glad diaries can't talk!  Papa would not be pleased.  But I'm a grown woman now, and I've made my choice.


I just hope he doesn't want to talk about children any time in the near future.